haiss ..
13days since you're gonee .
i really miss you damn much .
misses those time ,
when i step into koufu ,.
and th fear i would have see-ing you there .
but now whenever i go there
i wnt have those feeling anymore .
how i wish i would stilll can be scared of seeing you there .
but now ..
hais .
i know you really care for me.
those times you send me to school on your bike .
how i wish you could ssend me to school daily now .
i would rather you scold and control me
but now .
you're gone ....
times when you protect me from harm
times you when down to my school and fight for my rights .
i really miss you much .
everyday i go home now ,
i would not see you anymore .
i really wish ,
how i really wish,
i would be scolded by you now ,
hit me ,
cook for me
and bring me out .
i really regret it much now .
now and then ,.
i kept thnking .
if i really did insist on not going school that day ,
maybe all this wouldnt have happen .
or have i really insist on going home from school
but mr teng said he could not contact you so i could not go home .
kinda fucking hate him now .
but i know,
saying all this is of no use now .
hais .




went out today with jon and aunt .
had lunch at crystal jade .
after that walk around .
went to topman .
got a jeans , $83 .
heart pain uh .
but my aunt pay fer me .
haha .
my brother better uh .
gotten a lego worth $150 .
and a DS $270 .
all my aunt bought for him .
kinda pity my brother .
still abit innocent
although his abit guailan ,
but i know he misses my father more then i do ,
hais .
dnt really know what to do now .
only can lead a day after another .


.. hais ..