i'm sorry .

It marks th end.
it's all over.
it's all my fault.
i'm sorry guys.
your trusted me,
but i failed your.
i miss all my shots.
i'm not on form that day.
i'm sorry .
i'm also foul out of court.
it's all my fault.
i drag you all down.
diddn't played well and being foul out.
down with both knee injuries
&. a long term ankle injury .
i hate myself for what happen today .
14/1/09 .
i'm sorry guys .
we did not meet th expectation.
we failed badly.
we dissapoint many..
i'm sorry for being a burden.
i'm really sorry .
i dont know how to face your .
i dont know how to face coach.
i dont know how to face teacher .
haiiis .
i'm totally 2 diff world playing outside and in school.
i dont know why i can't play th standard when i play outside.
i'm sorry.
i dont know how,
dont know why .
sorry Alicia Dumbass , sorry Babygurl .
and lastly.
sorry th whole basketball team.
i'm sorrry .
i'm downn ...
hais .
i've lett many downn ..
.

yawnns .
siann bodoh .
3rd day if sch ,
hair tio cut .
heart very pain siaa .
my frindge!
fuckk luhs .
my whole hair like shit bodoh.
nabehcheeby .
then on friday .
i absconded class .
show a fucking attitude .
until noone in ofice there touch me .
sibeh shiok .
now need wait monday for punishment.
sibeh buayloon sia .
lols .
then went over to tamp today,
go find guoping pass him money .
slack awile then went to bedok hq because of some fucking reason.
cabb pasir ris slack till 1+ which is now then go home le .
basketball tournetment starting on monday.
happy cause for 2weeks can early release .
sad because of some reason .
this time .
diedie also must try hard go in next round.
an aim for everyone of us to satisfy some bitch .


1st match- Dunman high sch.
2nd match- Bedok green sec.
3rd match- Bedok north sec .
4th match- Springfield sec.
5th match- Pingyi sec.
gooodluck to us alll .

cyaaa .

fuckk luh ,
school start le.
holidays ended .
so fucking faast
haven't enjooy enough .
times fly just as much when we're having fun .
no more night life ):
now must start studying le.
first day go sch go to NA
not use to it sia .
nvm . i landed myself like this .
sian ji pua .
dont know what to do .
basketball tournament starting le .
must start training again .
argh , sibeh stress sia .

To all brothers .
~~~~~~~~~~~
our night life memories will nevr be forgotten.
the happy times laughing,
the bottles of beer beign gulp down.
the times being drunk,
the times of ups and downs.
the times at gamerz tgt.
all those memories
will stay in us forever .
.

-Angus
-Moses
-Shani
-Guoping
-Mervyn
-Weilong
-Jordy
-Jackie
-Alvin
and to all others that we hang out tgt.
during chalet , slacking times and all .

-Brothers for life .


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As nights went by,
i'm starting to miss you,
As days went past .
i'm starting to think of you.
As times fly's fast.
i'm starting to fall for you .
As moments past,
i'd knew it's you .
<3

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yawnns ,
sibeh tired siol .
hahas .
sorry for missing many days of post.
was like toning 5days ? wtf ..

Many things happen this 5 days ,
lazy to type out siaa .
happy moments .
best memories .
best laughters .
Was totally enjoying every moment now .
I'm thinking of closing my blog .
i'm very lazzyy to blog sia .
Everyday outside .
Night lifeeeeeee ...
besttt!
why th fuck must holiday end siaaa .
walann ehh .
knnbccb .

nth to post le.
as i'm very lazy to do so
==''

time check ? 3.15am
lols .

Miss 2days of post .
Sunday went bugis ,
walk here walk there walk till sian uh .
Saw till some nice berms and polo .
Must get it th next time i go .
lols , hahas .
Also went to sisha on th same day .
Th thing macham you smoke whole day also haven finish sia .
Fucking long luh .
We 6 ppl went in .
4hours later come out .
The thing barely move .
wtfff ! lol

Then today went to gamerz .
Supposingly meet Jorden Moses Hadi and Bobby only
Then suprisingly saw Mike , Weiji , Kenneth they all.
Play-ed 3rounds of dota.
lols, sibeh sian .
realise i improve but still quite a noob ==''
After that went to 230 .
when me and Bobby walk down that time .
Got one girl sit over there sile at us.
My first thought was .
'who was she ? '
then i ask Bobby,
Girlgirl luh .
LOLs .
then girlgirl go strangle me .
hahas .
then slack till 11+ went to find gp,Angus all at wp.
1230am . home sweet home .
lols

thats all peeps /
bye :D

time check ? 3am .
lols ,
i'm really more and more into night life.
Holidays end so fast .
knn,
less then 20 days end le.
sian .
Mush cherish my bed moree .
Get more slp .
Slp till song ,
hahas .

Just now in th morning go sch ,
Buy long pants.
Fucking baggy bodoh .
Then i take go teplet .
Fuck sia , 2 long pants like that,
Total i pay 60bucks .
knn , budget sch , so ex.
CCB!
Then went to wp buy sch shoe .
Called th Abel ,
knn , wait for him damn long sehh ,
From 12 - 2 . then we at ws le.
Went behind mac smokeing corner smoke,
Saw Barry and Celestine.
lols .
Finally reach penisula at 3+4
Walk around, shopshopshop ,
Total achievement ,
4Berms total , 2 shirts ,
I took 1 berm,
Abel 3 berm one pants.
And Moses 1 shirt.
Sibeh sian sia.
Then we head over to bugis ,
walkwalkwalk ,
Fucking Abel th eyes down there keep
see girl ==''
lols .
at 6+ head back to pasir ris
lols ,
slack at mac outside awhile then went home .
Met Abel and head over to ws again .
Went dt afterthat .
Saw many ppl there .
sian ,
then at 10+ ,
head over to hme .
lols .
fucking day ?
tiring ehh .

time check , 3:48am
lols.

Just back from meeting th usual .
Slack ,
Just now whhatever happen from morning damn funny can.
I missed training in th morning .lols
Then lucky Angus wake me up for afternoon match .
After that when down koufu meet them .
Then went to Mervyn house .
Hahas .
'Something' happen and we continue chatting.
Suddenly Mervyn call and say
'I'M STUCK IN TH LIFT'
LOLS
We all down there laugh till peng uh .
hahas.
After that we all went down 813tampinis court.
Friendly match ,
Huang Chao( Us ) vs RuiSui.
1st quater and 2nd we were leading.
Then 3rd quater don't know what happen lose by 11points.
Then last quater lose 8 points.
Hais sibeh fuckup can .
62:54 .
And th CB Leonard last quarter then come .
LOL:x
Th GuoPing also .
Fall at last quater ,
Sibeh cute luhhs ,
hahas .
Then at night all go white sand .
Sibeh disiao bodoh.
Keep go ask number ==''
WEILONG fucking idea .
hahas.

Dont know what tml may become.
Holidays ending soon ==
sian ...

hellos'

Dont really know what to blog sia .
Ppl keep saying i nvr blog .
==''
Ohyaa
Ytd midnight went down to kopitiam meet Guoping and his gina and friends .
Sibehh funny luh
They got a barcardi .
So Me , Mervyn and Wilson from Mervy house ,
Bring poker go down find them .
Loser tar .
Lols ,
JORDY WAS DRUNK .
HE WAS A BLODDY FUCKING CLOWN !
LOLs .
Sibehh funny luhs knn .
I see him like that,
So jialat ,
I think of that time when i'm drunk,
What a disgrace ==''
lols .
Hais sian .
I dont know what i'm thinking .
Th feeling isnt great when i heard th 'news'
I thought i would be happy .
But i'm not .
hais .
Dont wish to mention bout it !
Kay bahhs .
Going out meet Mervyn and th rest at kopitiam now .
Standard midnight slack .
hahas .
Time check 1.15am .

cya guys :D

Ooopsy . sorry all !

PSPS.
Have not been posting for many days le .
Was very busy .
Everyday mostly not at home .
Out slacking .
Past few days .
At tm , downtown etc .
Went to bukitgombak on wedsday somemore .
Lols .
Then ytd at penisula.
KopKopKop .
lols .
Bastard us . haha .
Many days of thinking ,
I think i got my thinking straight .
I'm gonna live like nothing had happen before .
hahas .
Suddenly realise .
Past few weeks ,
Had beeen night drinking .
And also smoking alot .
lols .
I go HSA counselling ,
They told me i got high blood pressure .
121/79.
I was like ? WTF ?
lols .
Been toning this few days too .
lols .
Sibeh tired and shagg .
Dont know what to do .
Should be going haywire soon .
uhh!
What happen siol ?
sian .
MIA from computor this few days .
ps uh if you wanted to contact me .
24/7 out and not home .
81897206 .
If you guys really urgent and need to find me
Gimme a call :D

cyas all :)

Hello all ,
Today was a long day, hahas .
Morning wake up 1+ le.
Then actually got taiji at 2.30pm .
In th end nvr go ,
Lucky got other ppl go down siol.
Hahas ,
Then so i went to bus-stop wait for Moses ,
We go buy cigg and up we went to Mervyn house as usual .
Angus was already there since morning waiting for me .
LOLs hahas .
We at there till 5+ then suddenly mervyn recieve one call .
Down to Tampinis mall we went.
Alot ppl there siol .
At least 20 . lols .
Then me Angus and Abel go sit another side .
Guaikiaa mahhs bo bian .
Suddenly saw Wenjie and Clement come.
Johnny came too . lols .
Sit down there talk talk smoke smoke .
Then halfway through ,
Saw 大Daimien there with Venetia and rest .
Lol , another big group siol , hahas paikia .
Then Me Angus and Abel go makan ,
After that Abel need go home .
So send him to MRT station there .
Halfway saw 4 ppl , si beh cheng .
Keep stare ,
Then me and Angus and Moses go stand there keep staring them.
Even when they up the escalater .
Then i shout , ' Kua lan uh , ai kua kua la '
In public siol . think abt it , xiasuay ==''
Hahas , then ltr went back to open space .
Smoke .
Then later all went down slack at cheers there .
Hahas .
Got ppl call Angus shuai ge sia .
Hahas . damn funny can .
So slackslackslack again ,
After that meet Eleanor .
Hahas ,
She wore a tube sia .
Sibeh funny la ,
Like see her first time wear tube ,
Keep laughing .
Pei her till 10 then send her home .
Sighh , sian . haiis .
Dont know what came into me again .
lalalaas~
Till here bahh .

Cya guyys .

Hi guys .
I'm back from th stupid police camp .
Lols ,
Had quite some fun too .
Th night before camp ,
Went drinking with Mervyn , Guoping , Wilson and Moses .
Ton-ed .
After drinking ,
Moses come my house wait for me pack.
After pack then go his house liao ,
Wait for him okay ,
We cab down to Npc .
First day at there ,
My school kena aim liao , ccb .
Then th usual spotchecks when on .
Fedrink cigg tio caught ,
but this cb kia , kept some in his lanjiao.
But then soon after ,
We tio spot check again .
Our sch like th one everytime tio aim .
6 schs went , HaiSing, Loyang, Coral, Greenview, Prcs , Siglap .
All out cigg tio confiscate sian .
But th lucky me escape all th spotcheck .
My phone keep at my lanjiao sia ,
Then th first time weilong msg some more .
Then my phone vibrate at my lj , ccb .
First day of camp sibeh sian uh .
Then second day ,
Th rock climbing part ,
Fedrick sibeh funny luh,
He climb half way , then say hand pain.
Then he slowly let go keep down there shout ' falling ! '
Sumpa sia , if you were there ,
Confirm laugh till stomach pain .
Me Moses Eben Jj all laugh sibeh jialat .
Then after that ,
Me ,Jj , Feh , Moses sibeh cb .
We act one sick then sleep at sick bay whole day ,
Got air con sia . shiok.
Hahas . Then at night i took out phone call ppl .
I call-ed her and Mervyn .
I told her i miss her and ask th same ,
She say she misses too .
Hearing that sibeh happy uh .
Hahas .
Then today break camp ,
After reach pasir ris ,
Me and fedrick go chiong buy cigg .
We drag like siao la knn , sibeh fast .
Then after that cab home .
Bath then go out again .
Meet Mervyn all , go whitesand , thn downtown , PRP.
Slack slack slack ...
Now at Mervyn's house ,
Sian .
I really miss her much.
Wish to see her soooooon ...

Hais ,
Midnight drinking with Mervyn and Guoping again .
Did not get drunk this time okay !
But after th phone with her this morning ( 2am+)
No comments on what happen next .
This was th first time i reveal everything out what i wanna say to a girl .
I can't imagine that i could actually say it out .
All i wanna say ,
Were said in 34mins 32sec .
Every single thing .
Not even leaving out small little details .
I really dont know what came into me .
Maybe had a drop too much .
Hais .
While saying halfway ,
She asked me ,
'' Are you drunk ?''
My heart shattered at those .
Were she doubting my words ?
I then clearly told her back .
'' I'm still awake ''
I then end the conversation with my 2 sentence ,
Hais ,
It took whole of my courage to say everything ,
But i'm left with no courage to face her after saying .
Sorry girl ,
My fault for saying out all when you are vexed enough .
Hais .
Meeting Abel th cheebye now with th rest .
Might be posting again later .

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Haiis ,
Sick this few days ..
Haven't been eating and sleeping good ,
Almost drunk again yesterday night .
Was on th phone with her .
Keep asking her go sleeep she dosen't want to .
Then i ask her not to seek for th reocrding .
She wanna hear it .
I'm trying to get it now ,
But i dont know whether to let her hear anot .
I fearr much .
Hais ,
Nothing to post already .
Siian .

Takecare's all .

2nd post - at home now .

Haiis , saw her just now .
I really dont know what to do .
She said she dont' wanna hurt me .
But does she knows that she's hurting me every moment .
Haiis ,
Then yesterday night drinking .
Barcardi 1889 .
7/8 cups of tar and i'm drunk.
Lols
Causes alot of trouble .
I spurt out alot of things in my heart.
There were even recordings of it .
While listening to every word i said ,
Yea , i laugh out aloud ,
But i'm crying deep inside .
I dont blame them if they record ,
Even if words spread around ,
I think its all my just dessets .
But i hope ,
All those that have th recordings of me when i'm drunk,
Kindly dont ever let her get hold or listen to it .
I dont wanna break a couple up since they are happy tgt .
Lasty , Guoping , i owe you one .
Thanks , takecare's guy ,

Blogging at Mervyn house now .
Stayed overnight there .
Drank barcardi with Guoping &.Wilson.
Mervyn and Dylon dnt wanna drink .
Hahas . i'm DRUNK! lolols .
The way they told me what happan when i drunk .
Sibeh funny . And i vomited 2 times siol .
I also vomit white foam .
Haiis . They also told me i said many things about her .
They also told me that i cry .
I feeel so fucking useless .
And , thanks Guoping for taking care of me when i'm drunk .
(Not gonna reveal what happen)
Hahaas . reallly moody ytd .
Now wake up still feeeling sehseh .
And its sibeh sehh .
Hais . thats it bahh .
cya guys :D

Hello everyone .
1st time i'm blogging . hahas .
still a noob at it .

Start from today bahh .
She's finally attached yeahh . hahas .
Wish her well and long lasting .
Although it diddn't feel great .
But i guess if she's happy ,
I would be happy too .

To her*
If you read my blog .
I wanna say i'm really sorry ,
For all that i'hv said and done .
Hate me if you want .
I dont blame you .
Only myself for everything.
It's all my fault in th first place .
Sorry girl , takecare's .

And to Lipkang:
Thanks for being there and listening to me.
I may have shown you abit of attitude .
Sorry too yeahhs .
And i'm realy gratefull ffor you being there when i'm down .
And your forgivement on th past .
All that i did to you ,
Be it harmfull or whatever.
Really a big thanks bro :D

Kay bahh . post till here .
Going mervyn house drink bercardi now :D 1879 de .
Moodless now yea.
&.sorry to all if i had shown attitude .

Bye ~