All's lost .

hmmm's ,
back for afew days already.
seem's so bored nowadays ,
moodswings now&.then .
anyway , my blog is still being work on ,
so yah ,
hmmm's ,
caught midnight movie ytd night with angus and co .
till 7 reach home .
th 2nights before ytd spent with glen and co .
bored .





i quess you will nvr know ,
those tear's i shed while missing you .
&.just when i thought ,
all of sudden,
you gave me a cold shoulder .
maybe i'm thinking too much ,
but forget it then .
quess it 's ending after all .

&.she's one dummy .

lack of updates ,
ps ,
hmmm's ,

june holidays ~
1june,2june,3june, - chalet .
4june, -jubeat! ton ,
5june, - slept home all day , ton
6june, - summer breeze drinking .
7june, - bryans bbq
8june, - jubeat! ton ,
9june, - chalet , home slp .
10june,11june,12june, - cruise .
13june, -angus bbq ,
14june, -slept home all day , ton ,
15june, -jubeat! ton ,
16june, -jubeat! ton ,
17june,18june,19june, -chalet ,
20june, -shop out with mama and didi ,
21 june, slept , ton with stupid! (:
22june, - right now preparing t go genting oh .

Don't miss me ya ? :D


don't know wht t blog already -.-
tht piq keep asking me update ==''
hmmm's ,
toning just now was fine ,
btw ,
ps glen and guys ,
did not went t find you all uh .
:x
will pay back when i'm back yah :D
&. so halfway tonning ,
my 'entertainer' from m'sia came ,
damn fun disiao him ,
afterwards head over t playground ,
bibi , baba , dada
around 7 head home yah .





&.it keeps getting stronger ,
th love just won't fall back ,
i'm more into you girl .

hello's peeps (:

back from cruise .
miss me ?
hahas :x
had much fun though .
did many soul searching .
diddnt slept for th 2nights on crusie .
freaking hell cold luh .
when bathing straight turn t hot water .
==''
th cruise was like damn big can .
from one end to another took me a 10mins walk ==''
and its so hard t fidn those places ,
but after awhile , as use t it already .
went t th partenon pool ,
alot of chiobu luh .
was like keep turning rounds and rounds sitting and smoking :x
hahas .
had meals at th meditarean buffet and chinese restruant.
was like keep roaming around luhh .
damn bored seriously .
went t th casino .
sneak in actually , hahas.
was abt t insert those chips and was caught and chase out ==''
Lol , wtf ehh .
watch sunrise on th 3rd morning .
damn nice luh .
lazy t upload photos from my phone .
just came back from breakfast with weijie , glen and terrence ,
going out soon now ,
will post again when back from th ''bbq''
which might be tml after ton-ing
cya guys .

i hesitated&.thought for a moment ,

i really miss you this 3days ,

&.that;s when i know ,

my feelings are trueee .

hello's all .

had really much fun out today .
slept in th noon at bout 12 ?
woke up at around 10pm .
yah and so .
many miss calls and msg ,
and ,
SORRY ANGIE !
promise meet for movie but in th end yah .
hahas (:
so 10pm ,
woke up ,
makan , bath , prepare .
left house at around 11pm .
met weijie and andrew at elias ?
bought ciggrates and abit snacks ,
then bus in t pasir ris park ,
headed over t summer breeze
& met up with th rest ,
when we reach ,
they already finish 2 towers ,
and their food ,
Lols.
so we order another tower
and rahu gotten himself another pint .
crapping around with jokes .
damn fun can ,
played a game call-ed taboo .
loser get whack and while whacking ,
must say out th sentence to stop it ,
& it's like , '' i like your mama because you mama is fatt , and i like your papa because his so skinny '
ya so , hahas .
waited for guoping for like damn long .
when he reach , finish his pint and off we headed for supper .
jorden , hadi and justin left first ,
so th rest 9 of us went over t coffee express .
after supper , bought snacks and cards ,
went over to seashell park ,
th stage there and we played 'Kings'
th punishment is so farkup ,
which ever jogger went pass us is their bad ,
disiaodisiao .
had much fun and till till around 6 ,
all bus back ,
th rest went home ,
and now its me and weijie over at glen house .
both suckers are snoring beside me right now ==''

and yah ,
till here folks :D

M I A - ing btw .
(:









&. i realise ,
i'hv lost you totally
D:/span>

A sudden dreamt of you kept my spirits low ,
i never knew this feelings till moments ago ,
time just pass by day my day ,
but everything seems to be happening just yesterday .
I still can't accept th fact that you're gone ,
but there's nothing i could do to but cry alone ..

I just misses you so much ,
&.your sudden gone was just too much for me to take .
I was th first whom witness everything ,
and it all stay vividly on my mind .
I always got this feeling you're somewhere next to me ,
but why won't you just come out and speak to me ?
I'm in a total loss of what to do ,
drinking and drowning sorrows ?
Or maybe just one day ,
i would leave everything behind ,
jump off &.ends my misery,
&.joins you happily .





to her*

consious / uncounsious i may be ,

whenever i hear your voice ,
my heart just soften ,

although just spending a few 15mins with you ,
my heart totally melted ,

every moments looking into your eye's ,
my heart started to feel for you ,

&whenever i started remeniscing,
my heart was filled of you ,

&thats when i know ,
i'm gradually falling for you .
♥

Hello's all .
long time since i post .
35days gone by .
time fly's fast ,
but everything seems so vivid .
just like happen only ytd uh .

hmmm's ,..
start from last saturday ?
caught a last min movie at 1130pm ?
'night at th museum 2 '
nice show though .
ended around 1.30am ?
went home around 2.30 .

then on sunday,
met jon and aunty lucy ,
went for dinner at near katong there ?
don't know where th place ==''
after that went to siglap road meet Jon friends .
sit down chat chat ,
smoke smoke .
after that went to one of their house ?
at upper east coast road yah .
played poker .
took around 1 hour to finish a round of dealer ,
hahas .
quite fun .
head over to a pub later on ?
watch EPL ,
sibeh dulan uhh .
drink&. drink&. drink ,
smoke&. smoke&. smoke ,
play&. play&. play ,
fuck&. fuck&. fuck .
at around 2/3 + am ?
headed home in cab .
woah ,
th cab fare fucking chor uh ==''
nvm bout it .
quite fun though .
slept and woke up tdy morning ?
around 10 headed off to th temple ,
for th prayer ,
5th 7 yah ..
another 2 weeks 49 days already ,
haiis.
flashbacks and all keep going over and over again .
and till here ..
D:

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?- Do't take up much of my time can le luhh .
2)Was your last real relationship a mistake?- Forgotten who le .
3)Do you love your friends?- expect for lj kia
4)Who did you last say “I love you” to?- Mian huanlo
5)Do you regret it?- regret your mum
6)Have you ever been depressed?- think so
7)Are you a boy or girl?- i got 2 sotong balls and a sausage .
8)What is your relationship status?- Single luh .
9)How do you want to die?- D.I.P luh .
10)What did you last eat?- Kentucky Fried Chicken
11)Played any sports?- basketball uh
12)Do you bite your nails ?- Nope
13)When was your last physical fight?- Goodboy don't fight .
14)Who are your best friends?- I know can le (:
15)Do you have an attitude?- No attitude not call Aaron luh
16)Do you like someone?- yah . My dad .
17)What is your real name?- Aaron Koh .
18)Do you like this quiz?- Ki hong gan . lj ques .
19)Are you gonna get high later ?- when your mother rub my dick uh .
20)Do you hate anyone at the moment?- Lack of hatred uh
21)Do you miss someone?- yeah . My father
22)Twirl or cut your spaghetti?- Suck it .
23)Do you tan a lot?- no . if not become sio ter like ABEL uh .
24)Have any pets?- Nope
25)How exactly are you feeling?- Dulan luh . lj quiz .
26)Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?- dumb ques
27)Ever made out in the bathroom?- with your mum .
28)Would you take any of your ex-es back?- maybe , if they ask uh .
29)Are you scared of spiders?- nope.
30)Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?- Definately . No erase off all misery .
31)Do you regret anything from your past?- regretted everything i did .
32)What are your plans for this weekend?- Go geylang pio kuay relax .
33)Do you want to have kids?- Yup, but not yao siew kia .
34)Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?- think not bahh .
35)Do you type fast?- depends .
36)Do you have piercings?- Don't have la , obviously .
37)Want any more?- yah , maybe on my dick ?
38)Can you spell well?- Of cause , i'm well-educated .
39)Do you miss anyone from your past?- yes. My dad .
40)What are you craving right now?- to see my father again .
41)Ever been to a bonfire party ?- your lampa on fire uh .
42)Who is your first love?- my heart is dead .
43)Have you ever been on a horse?- yes .
44)Kissed someone in a pick up truck?- never la .
45)Have you ever broken someone’s heart?- no . i'm kind hearted .
46)Have you ever been cheated on?- Only i cheat ppl .
47)Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?- I not that heartless .
48)Do you love your bf?- no feelings .
49)Would you live with someone without marrying them?- just for fuck .
50)What should you be doing ?- piqqing la .
51)What’s irritating you right now?- my dick . itchy uh .
52)Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?- yeah .
53)Does somebody love you?- everyone love's me :X
54)What is your favorite colour ?- my life is dull .
55)Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?- yeah.
57)Do you have trust issues?- of cause.
60)Do you have a good relationship with your parents?- i dnt have affair with either my parents.
62)Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?- of cause . they should be daily .
63)Who was the last person you cried in front of?- my father
64)Do you give out second chances too easily?- See how uh .
65)Is it easier to forgive or forget?- forgive who ? wont forget my father .
66)Is this year the best year of your life?- NO . DEFINATELY NOT .
67)What was your child hood nickname?- no idea .
68)Have you ever walked outside completely naked?- yeah . when your whole family die uh perharps .
70)Do you believe everything happens for a reason?- no reason how got things happen.
71)What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?- MUSTERBED
73)What is bothering you?- Many things running through my mind now uh .
74)Have you ever been out of your province?- only from my mama womb .
75)Do you play the Wii?- you buy gimme la ?
76)Are you listening to music right now?- yah . to entertain me from tis quiz .
77)Do you like Chinese food?- if not i not chinese luh .
78)Do you know your father's birthday?- YES ! ALWAYS WILL REMEMBER .
79)Are you afraid of the dark?- Afraid your ass ..
80)Is cheating ever okay?- when did cheating was ever okay .
81)Are you mean?- i already said . i'm a kind soul .
82)Can you keep white shoes clean ?- can , dont wear lo .
84)Do you believe in true love?- maybe .
88)Do you like the outside?- what fuck talking you .
89)Are you currently bored?- Arbuuden
90)Do you wanna get married?- who dosent ? other then monks and nuns la .
91)Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?- speciallity .
92)Are you hungry?- Yeah..
93)Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?- yah . with your family members.
94)What makes you happy?- when your mum blow for me ?
95)Would you change your name?- No , my father give me th name .
96)Ever been to Alaska?- yeah . in my dreams maybe .
98)Do you watch the news?- no . see newspaper only .
99)What’ s your zodiac sign?- LEO !
100)Do you like Subway?- yeah .
101)Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?- i lost th chace to kiss my father th last time .
103)Do you talk like your friends?- when mimickingluh .
105)Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?- Yeah
106)Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?- dnt knw, ask your mum stand in front of me try uh .
107)Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?- LIPKANG , TALKING TO HIM NOW .
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?- persude them not to smoke much .
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?- pshyologist .
110) Favourite lyrics right now?- many uh .
111)Can you count to one million?- yeah . if after counting my father would come back luh . i will definately do it.

hello's all uh .
thanks all for th tagging uh .
will try to cheer up yeah.
but it's hard yah .
hais .
14days already ....

went to tamp today ,
with mama and didi .
had dinner at seol garden .
and caught a movie after that .
X-men origins - wolverine .
hais .
during th movie ,
i've been wondering much ,
whens th last time i caught a movie with my father ?
it's been like years already since th whole family watch a movie together
hais ..
really miss you much .
feel so lost without you ,
yearn to hear your voice ,
and hitting me .
..
mama bought 6 perfumes uh .
$250 eh ,
2 for me .
hahas .


hais uh ,
don't know what to do .
can't seem to concentrate in everything i do .
gotta go checkup tomorrow uh.
had an appointment .
in th morning 9.30 .
sian uh ,
don't really know what to say already.
cya guys ..

haiss ..
13days since you're gonee .
i really miss you damn much .
misses those time ,
when i step into koufu ,.
and th fear i would have see-ing you there .
but now whenever i go there
i wnt have those feeling anymore .
how i wish i would stilll can be scared of seeing you there .
but now ..
hais .
i know you really care for me.
those times you send me to school on your bike .
how i wish you could ssend me to school daily now .
i would rather you scold and control me
but now .
you're gone ....
times when you protect me from harm
times you when down to my school and fight for my rights .
i really miss you much .
everyday i go home now ,
i would not see you anymore .
i really wish ,
how i really wish,
i would be scolded by you now ,
hit me ,
cook for me
and bring me out .
i really regret it much now .
now and then ,.
i kept thnking .
if i really did insist on not going school that day ,
maybe all this wouldnt have happen .
or have i really insist on going home from school
but mr teng said he could not contact you so i could not go home .
kinda fucking hate him now .
but i know,
saying all this is of no use now .
hais .




went out today with jon and aunt .
had lunch at crystal jade .
after that walk around .
went to topman .
got a jeans , $83 .
heart pain uh .
but my aunt pay fer me .
haha .
my brother better uh .
gotten a lego worth $150 .
and a DS $270 .
all my aunt bought for him .
kinda pity my brother .
still abit innocent
although his abit guailan ,
but i know he misses my father more then i do ,
hais .
dnt really know what to do now .
only can lead a day after another .


.. hais ..

Good &.bad things come to an end .

Hais .
th things i dread most has come .
why is all this thing happening ?
another path of life has enlighten in front of me .
funeral ended today .
body send to crematation.
hais .
really tiring this few days .
was shocking for me on tuesday .
i was th first handed who witness my father death ,
and i was one of th reason to cause this to happen .
i'm not sure about his last breath .
as they told me i was with him till th last breath .
but as far as i know
his already gone by then .
i was stunt and shock .
everything come to a halt at that moment .
i really don't know what to do .
everyday i have to force a smile out when friends attended my funeral .
and every night of th funeral
i broke down in tears terribly .
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爸爸
我知道你所做的一切都是为我的好
我很对不起你
我知道我曾经不听你的话
还苍苍和你顶嘴。
现在后悔也来不及了。
我知道你很不象看到我这样。
可是我真的忍不足的掉泪。
我答应你我会好好读书。
乖乖的不再给妈妈添麻烦。
你安心地走吧。
-------------------------------------

i'm really sorry .
regretness,
remorseful,
guiltyness.
i know saying all this and feeling all this is of no use now.
what i've got to do is pick up and continue with life.
i've still got a brother and mother to takecare of .

but where can i find th courage?
to pick myself up ?
and really move ahead with life ?

24

GI ANG KUN .

HUAT AH !

AW AR AW ,

3 6 9,

WANSUI !

Boring boring ~~

busy this few weeks uh ,
sians .
caught 17again on friday .
hahas .
quite a nice show .
sat when to chalet .
not really that fun uh .
injured much too .
sunday rot whole day .
and had interview on monday .
hahas .
went to Polar at terminal 2 .
went all th way there just for th interview ==
bus there with Jordy and Guoping ,
they told that we will be call-ed latest by wedsday .
hope they would call yeahh .

exam's are round th corner .
haven't been able to catch up much in class .
totally lost man .
dont even know a single thing for exams .
nevertheless ,
still trying hard to try passing my MYE .
gotten 2 0's for my common test alrdy .
and fail th rest only managing to pass 1 subject uh .
pathetic man .

wish for better days ahead uh ?
GDluck all for MYE :D

Ziling here .
Aaron blog rotting soon hur !

To spammer ,
If you have th guts t spam , have th guts t write your name .
How old are you alr ?
Don't your parents teach you t respect people ?
Or your parents didn't give you go school fr education sibo ?
Well , if you don't , let me teach you then .
Please lah , weather you're a girl or boy , i don't care .
Don't be ashame of th name your parents give you .
Your parents gave you name is t let people know , and not fr you t be ashame of it .
Or you don't even respect them ? No manners at all !
Don't be humji lah , typing and scolding behing th computer , be more mature -.-
You want jiu go meet aaron lah , and scold in front of his face .
I bet you don't even dare , haha .
Only childish people like you would do this kind of immature things , which one small kids would do ?
Seriously , stop spamming when you don't dare t put your name , humji gao !
& stop saying things when you don't even know .
How you know he is poor , homeless ? -.-
NO EVIDENCE = STFU !
His not guilty of anyt that his did not do .
And i don't think he have th need t explain with you , cos explaning t you is a waste of time .
-
& this warning goes t who have thought of spamming him
Spam with guts , with your name , if not don't spam .
& he alr , put his msn there . go add and scold lah , or else don't spam .
Don't humji , really buey gey yan small kids like you .
Talk till wu ling wu hor , but then don't dare come out talk -.-

Ziling here ! :D
Helping that stupid lazy aaron t post his blog .
As i promised t post fr him , if he never post fr one day .
He like so fking lazy hur ? Hah .
Don't know why his so lazy .
Mayb his a pig ? Or mayb worse ? WAHAHAHA :DD
Btw Aaron aye aaron , quit smoking lah dey .
I'm now trying t quit alr , so you must also quit yeah .
Smoking bad fr health -.-
Imagine , if you continue smoking , when you're old or even when you're just about 20-30 years old , you tio lung cancer , brain cancer , kidney failure , heart attack ? More worse smoking will makes you look old , and your teeth yellowish , and gums will bleeed !
Then that time , you will really looks like LAOAHPEK ler .
Aiya , don't think that i'm cursing you , i'm just stating th fact yeah (:
HAHAHA , be a good boy and heed my advice :D
Shall stop here alr , tired t type ler .
Aaron remember hor , MUST QUIT , or at least just buy 2 packet of cigrette per week .

hello's all ((:

ytd and today was not a very GOOD day for me =='
met lipkang at 7+ downstairs to smoke that time,
wearing my hair band .
then i wanted to go to inside th lift th mirror .
as i was making it .
th door suddenly close .
i thought it won't go up ==.
suddenly , th lift started moving .
lols . i was shock .
lipkang told me he keep praying th lift go up .
bastard siaa!
lol .
then today climb out school gate with guanli .
we climb th front gate .
lols . right beside security post ,
infront of general office .
lols . kamgong right?
hahas . my idea .
2hours after we climb out ,
then they notice ==''
cock sia th school ==
then i was at douby gourt then .
friends were calling me .
saying announcement were made to look for us .
i quickly rush back to pasir ris then to meet guanli and head to school tgt.
and when i tap my ez-link ,
i thought i can pass.
then when i walk
the thing close then hit my there
==''
pain sia .
then lk keep laughing like cb
==. paiseh bodoh .
went back school and got caning .
bo lak sa la .
lols .
hahas .
then th guanli like so funny la ==''
act cute sia he .
sian .
today went training too .
wah so long nvr go training and attend pe .
my stamina decrease like fuck .
run one round tired liao .
dnt say 1 round la. half a round ==''
fuckup man .
shaggg la now.


-&.tell me whaatta do ?

What i've down ?

yet another day .
haiis .
been thinking much today .
what have i been doing all this while ?
its it worthwhile getting into troubles?
is it really fun to be a nuisance?
is this th life of what i really wanted?
all those mistakes that i've done.
is it possible for time to replace it ?
i'm really down .
broken down into pieces ?
hais .
chatted a long while with Angus today .
seriously ,
we always say 1 things and do another.
but this time ,
we really sort our thinkings out .
tears were about to roll down ,
but i control it .
i dont wanna be that useless .
thinking bout all this .
what have i really achieve all this while ?
nothing but heavy consequences and price to pay for .
am i really going to carry on like this ?
carry on and land myself into boys home ?
remand prison ?
or what ?
as i smoke ,
every puff i took ,
i'm deep down thinking ,
why have i change .
change so much that i just realise ,
i'm no longer whom i use to be .
from primary school till now.
th past goodboy without any worries and just studying .
to 3years today ,
grown up without using brains at all .
fucking myself hard ,
but whats th use?
i dont seem to listen to those good advice ,
i know what i'm capable of .
i know i can study,
i know i'm able to achieve good results and do my parents proud ,
but i'm totally th oppsite now .
late for school daily?
low attendence in school ?
more shit cases ?
defience?
fighting ?
sleeping in class ?
bullying ?
all that i'm doing now .
landing me in poor results ,
dissapointment to parents ,
and ruining my own future at hand .
i really can't take this longer .
i want to change ,
i know i'm able to do what is expected of me .
but why am i hesitating ?
just whats wrong ?
i know i can think .
think whats good for myself .
seriously.
its not th bad influence i get from those company.
its myself getting influence by them .
reprimanding myself ,
by others,
parents,
teacher .
hais .
maybe ,
what i need is more time .
to really get me stable down .
and really do what i should do .
and till here .
D:

Hellos all.
long time no post huh .
hahas.
Been thinking and through many things this few weeks.
many problems crop out suddenly ,
and fade away in between times.
haiis.
my fine letter come le.
no $$ pay sia ==''
dieeee.
had quite some funn this few days too .
beeen up to alot of mischeif .
HAHAS.
now monday go back school need wait for punishment ==''
stupid el teacher knnbccb pua ji hongan pua yaosiew si orhjiao .
lols .
met alot ppl this few weeks too .
had all th fun and mischeif .
and now .
facing th music ==''
lols .
now talking to one stupid girl.
ZILING TH LAOAHMAAA !!
Hahas .
stupid girl .
cya guyys .

Hello's all (:

Seriously very lazy to post.
lol .
So many things happen at such a short time .
What am i doing?
Gotten caught contraband cigg .
Where am i gonna find th money to pay ?
Letter coming in 3weeks .
haiis .
Jordy birthday was on friday .
caught a movie on that day with many others .
and something happen after that.
nevermind bout it .
Ton and ton and ton .
life just past like this within afew moments.
Gotten a warning letter to go and make my IC.
lols .
keep delaying .
so many problems on hand right now.
dont know how and what to do .
aiyaaaa . sian la .
very long nevr use com le.
on only see my blog and c'box.
got spammer .
lame sia .
want spamspam laa.
want play dont play till laopeh there la.
want play till peh bu come out talk then.
or want tell my father what you wanna say also can.
i dont mind if you dare .
lamers .
many things are going to happen soon .
its only a matter of time .
hais .

time check ?
2.53am .

Back from drinking ..
hahas .
so long nvr drink le .
finally drinking againn .
tomorrow too (:
many day's never go school le .
attendence confirm less then 50% ,
lol .
mostly at gamerz now ?
if not go out .
sian .
so many things cock up .
dnt know what to do and when to do things at times .
$$ gone very fast too .
keep spending spending like water like that .
miss alot school test le.
hais . dont know what i'm doing ?
ruining my own future ? hahas .
going kisiao liao .
also dont know when going back school .
been smoking alot this few days.
Eat sleep play smoke and fuck around wasting time .
wanted to get a job soon .
actually wanting to find at tamp mall .
but then think wait for T1 open bahh .
siansiansiannnn ...
MIA ? lol .
and also so long never use com le .
on com only see so many crap things.
dulan sia .
and to ppl who wanna tag
please tag with your own name leh .
knn dont dare tag with own name dont tag.
dont like 1 dog stay behind com kpkb .
or use other ppl name to tag.
or my name to reply .
this childish acts ? pls luhh .
grow upp .

wishes everything to go back to normal soon ~~
till now ..

Haishaiss .
sooooo long never blog le .
sian siaa .
dont really feel like .
so many things happen .
good and bad things.
Everyday going to school like never go .
Either late , sleeping in class whole day or pon school .
siannn sia .
my late coming red slip is becoming more and more.
Absconded from all th detentions .
Total around 12 hours bahh ??
lol .
This year like not so smooth lehh .
lost alot money in gambling .
until debt ! wtf?
but clear le .
haiis .
Realise something that makes me fuckup .
From th first day of school till now.
I finally realise i never even learnt a single thing.
teacher teach so far le .
i like havent even started.
Books or everything also lazy buy .
everyday go school would just listen to music and sleep.
every teacher coming in th class confirm screem or knock my table.
lols.
i dont know wtf is happening la .
after from being express drop no normal acad .
i dont seem to be interested in studying anymore .
i completly lost th intrest in it .
dissapointing la . knn .
every smoke smoke slack sleep and play go out do stupid things.
thats my life? fuck manns .
i'm ruining my life by my own hands.
what to do now?
really dont know where to start ?
or pull myself back together and get right back on track.
i'm starting to doubt myself much .
i'm not th past me .
becoming from bad to worst .
fuck luhhhs .
can anyone tell me whatta do ?

i'm sorry .

It marks th end.
it's all over.
it's all my fault.
i'm sorry guys.
your trusted me,
but i failed your.
i miss all my shots.
i'm not on form that day.
i'm sorry .
i'm also foul out of court.
it's all my fault.
i drag you all down.
diddn't played well and being foul out.
down with both knee injuries
&. a long term ankle injury .
i hate myself for what happen today .
14/1/09 .
i'm sorry guys .
we did not meet th expectation.
we failed badly.
we dissapoint many..
i'm sorry for being a burden.
i'm really sorry .
i dont know how to face your .
i dont know how to face coach.
i dont know how to face teacher .
haiiis .
i'm totally 2 diff world playing outside and in school.
i dont know why i can't play th standard when i play outside.
i'm sorry.
i dont know how,
dont know why .
sorry Alicia Dumbass , sorry Babygurl .
and lastly.
sorry th whole basketball team.
i'm sorrry .
i'm downn ...
hais .
i've lett many downn ..
.